supposedly this is the hardest day to overcome, and believe it or not it was. i was working a demo for Galaxy Granola in Berkeley this day, and being that the product was "new and improved" i was seriously tempted to eat it, or at least taste it so i can speak so honestly about the product. i held back. as much as it was tempting, my goal on finishing the cleanse was more important that granola. i once read in another diet book, "it'll be there tomorrow." which is referring to food itself. food is in abundance, so there's no need for me to indulge on something so little.
same goes with the rest of my day. later that night i watched the Rise Against and Rancid concert. the smell of nachos and hotdogs filled the air, not to mention flowing rivers of beer, and still i held back. the funny thing is, i actually craved the lemonade. that was a reassuring feeling.
i forgot to mention, that after drinking the lemonade the whole entire day, my tongue felt clammy and gross. think of burning your tongue on a hot beverage, because that's what it feels like. by morning, it does go away. i didn't get to flush in the morning as scheduled, so i don't know what the overall effects will be except for not letting the waste out of my system. i think i should be okay.
Day 4
i would have to say, Day 4 was probably the hardest so far. i wouldn't say that my mood has changed, but i would have to say, that i did get highly emotional quickly and by the reactions to family members and friends a bit harsh as well. it may be a lack of food, after all even though calories are entering the body, they are empty and not fully feeding the brain of the nutrients it needs. i'm not starving and i'm not craving for anything.
the difficult part was being with someone that is eating food. the smell of a cheesesteak and a basket of onion rings was unbearable (regardless of the greasy lingering air) i still wanted it, but once again, not enough to break the cleanse. i am thankful for friends who have been on this journey because without there support, i don't think i can keep going. i know that, if i breakdown to these temptation, i'm only disappointing myself, and i really don't like that feeling.
it's also heartbreaking to be around people who don't understand or support you during this time. unfortunately, i'm just going to have stay strong emotionally and hold my bearings on this, and not let anyone get me down. being only day four, i'm considering extending the ten days and try to see how far i can take it. forty-five days is max, and i don't think i'll take it that far, but as long as i can
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